my thoughts on falling in love

i’ve always been a bit petrified of the idea of falling in love. here is what i think about it: “the feeling of love scares me. being in love, falling in love, or having someone else love me. i’m petrified of not knowing where i will be in 10 or 20 years and wondering if […]

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lavender walls

the lavender walls envelop me and my soft white comforter is a blank canvas where all of my thoughts lay to rest. my head hits the pillow and i am asleep- dreaming of far fetched ideas and realities that only are true in my own existence. in the purple room there is a mirror that […]

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when i was 16

this is a little blurb that i wrote reflecting on who i was when i was 16 years old. here are some unfinished thoughts of how the Lord started working on my heart in miraculous ways. “when i was 16, my voice crawled its way out of my stomach and the sweet taste of bitterness […]

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singing in the shower

i ripped page after page out of my journal. some of them were filled with words that scattered the surface of the paper, falling into a puzzle only I had the last piece to. others were blank, awaiting my pen to scribble lines of hidden lyrics that i hoped had a deeper meaning as i addressed […]

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i didn’t always like my coffee black

i cradle my cup of black coffee in the morning, wrapped up in my cocoon, and gaze out my bedroom window while i watch life pass me by on west alameda. i didn’t always like my coffee black. my friend claire drank coffee as dark as an ill lit country road on chilly, gloomy, mornings at summer camp. […]

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unfinished italian poems

i spent ten days in italy for a band tour. i got to play music, talk about Jesus, and apparently, find a new reason to write. these are unfinished thoughts that crossed my mind while i was away. begin again “wandering where no one knows my name. above the clouds i am but a dot […]

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jet lag and writer’s block

as i lay in bed, tired from jet lag, i think of why i can’t write. do you see what i did there? in case you didn’t know, i don’t usually rhyme. my words and thoughts don’t mesh, but are a humble and jumble of chaos that is in my head. i try to write, […]

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for my future lover

sometimes when i think about it, it’s just you and me. walking on the sidewalk, about a foot apart. i see us from behind, slowly but surely striding towards our destination. both of our hands reach to the middle and collide with each other’s in an awkward embrace that we try and play off as […]

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“Love of Self”

At one point in my life I tried to write poetry. Here is the only piece that I ever felt comfortable posting on the internet: Love of Self “Normalize the phrase, ‘I love myself’. Let it become second nature, rolling off of your bleeding tongue until it is all that you know. Etch that phrase […]

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A Semester of Music

Over the past six months I’ve started (and finished) my first semester of college, went on my first overseas mission trip to Ecuador, turned 19, got my first tattoo and two (yes, two) nose piercings, gained numerous friends, backpacked for the first time, spent my last week at summer camp, and went on more road trips than I can […]

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